there's always a reason for everything

K corn dog o’clock but right now’s a really good everything happens for a reason moment that I thin

k is super valuable to write about. I’m not even sure if I’ll share about this but if I do, it’s because this is something that I think maybe someone else can learn from or use to heal and accept stuff.

Basically. I’ve always been a huge believer in that saying. My biggest biggest inspiration for this has always been my mom, but also, @gretchengeraghty who spent her senior year of college spring break on her couch with her dad, healing from her ACL injury, just a week before he suddenly passed. I think that if you don’t go through life with that mentality, than what do you have, why keep going, what are you doing this for?

Because for real, life is a series of ups and downs and learning how to handle that, and always knowing that the downs are temporary but they may also be what gets you to an up.

So, recently, a person was introduced back into my life in a different way than they have been in a while. They became “available” again and I really had just had to deal with the fact that they were unavailable for a while.

So that kind of threw me for a loop, that I guess the things I could express to him were a little different than what they had been for a while.

Then as all of this was going on, another opportunity opened up with another person. It was seriously thrilling and all very new but with that, kind of overwhelming, all consuming and just kind of head boggling.

So, I don’t know, I listened to my gut in the ways I’ve been practicing for a while and did what I wanted to do.

I had a really crazy, exciting time doing that too. My head was spinning a little bit but the little things were all absolutely unreal.

But then with that came this morning. Where I had some questions for myself as to what I wanted out of this and how I felt about certain aspects of it.

I was emotionally and mentally exhausted all day.

Then tonight, I met up with one of these people again. And talked. And he told me that he could not be what I wanted right now. And I don’t know, I think I was kind of looking for a sign from god all day. A sign as for what to do. A sign as to which direction to go.

And I got it. And no, I’m not going to say I was like woohoo! My decision was made for me.

The wiggle room for me to decide what to do was gone. But I’m not sure if I ever would have really known which direction to go.

Sometimes we crave making your own decisions but I think sometimes the best thing to do is accept when it’s made for u. And understand that you know what, even if not in that moment, you may think about it later and realize you needed that.

So I don’t know. Maybe that resonated with you. Maybe it didn’t. But I just think sometimes there’s so much value in looking to the universe for a sign. And also realizing that even if a part of a situation is stinky, the whole thing doesn’t have to be.

I don’t know.

I hope future Parker, tomorrow, who might be a little down on her luck can look back at this and remind herself that this was what had to happen and she knew it the second she woke up this morning.